Open Heart

I have been too tired to write, but tonight, I’m afraid sleep will not come to me. You see, my father in law is having open heart surgery tomorrow morning at 7am.

Heart decease runs in my husband’s side of the family. His dad, 67, is the only one who has survived past the age of 50 in his dad’s side of the family. It doesn’t mean that he hasn’t had issues, but I think the reason he’s still alive is because he’s such a good, sweet, man.

Today, he had an angiogram done and unfortunately, it wasn’t good. At 7 am tomorrow, he’s having double bypass surgery. It was hard hearing my husband so upset as he told me over the phone.

I got dressed and went straight to the hospital to see him. He told me that he has had such a great life that if things got ugly, he couldn’t ask for more.  I couldn’t help but tear up and I said… “No ugly allowed, besides, it’s our wedding anniversary tomorrow.” Then I stayed quiet because I didn’t want to start sobbing. I stayed for a bit while Babe stayed with the boys in the van.

Before I left, Papa told me that he was telling someone how much he loved my lasagna, and I realized that he was saying “my daughter”, not daughter in law. That, really touched my heart. I know he loves me, but that, just… I can’t even explain what it made me feel. When I left, I gave him a hug, the sweetest hug I have ever gotten.

I haven’t been able to stop crying since. Even now, it’s hard for me to see through my teary eyes. I can’t even imagine how Babe is feeling. This is really tough, and idk if I’ll be able to sleep tonight.

I will be praying… Because Papa is the greatest man in the world. He is the best grandfather, the best dad, the best human being that whoever has met him has ever met.

We need to keep a positive outlook… Because everything WILL BE okay.