I have read the next chapter, but for some reason, my brain cannot comprehend what I’m reading. It’s called exhaustion! But I have been conscious of my actions towards my boys.
When I feel that I am getting frustrated with them. I stop, take a deep breath and then address them calmly. But I have lost my patience.
For example, we went to Old Navy because I had a coupon. While looking at some clothes, my big guy asked me for some sandals, but I told him that I was going to wait until after their party, just in case someone bought him sandals. So he started repeating “I want sandals, I want sandals…” Over and over again and I scolded him because I felt in my head, like I had no room to think. Not to even ask him nicely to please stop. So I was aggravated and so for the next 10 minutes or so, I scolded them, for touching, moving away from me, for playing near a sharp corner… (Sigh).
I then stopped, took a deep breath and decided that we were going to have a good day… And we did.
I am also trying to adopt the ‘you only live once’ mentality. So we have been staying up a little late, eating some junk food, going out more, enjoying life a little more. The biggest one is saying “yes” to going on vacation with my sister in-law.
I have been looking forward to a vacation with my just my boys. But after all of the stress we have been through, I said to my husband…”YOLO!!!”and he responded with “YOLO!!!”
So, in 6 days, we are going to go to Hilton Head to sit on the beach and do NOTHING!
The boys need this also… I hope they understand some day, how hard we are trying to be better people for them. I hope they know how much we love them.